Tuesday, May 4, 2010

dear granny..this is kind of selfish..

to my beloved gramma,



Though you are not here with us anymore, your memory still lingers in our head. Or maybe in my head. Love you so much, miss all the fights we had, gossips, and our own crazy adventres. Most of all i miss taking care of you. I miss lying on your lap, its not the same when i lay my head on moms or periammas' thats because you are way close to me than any one of them. I miss irritating you. I love to watch your expressions, my lovely gramma!!

I am honoured, because you choose to tell me all your secrets and 'good old days' stories . I realised then that you really sacrificed yourself alot for this family, and yeah, i will keep my promise to you to keep everyone together no matter what happen. That is my responsibility. I will also, live up to what you want me to become, a woman with ethics and integrity. A strong woman, just like you. Thank you for being proud of me. Just like you said i will also make appa proud of me...

Thank you for the days you supported me and gave me words of encouragements when i was down. When no one cared and bothered you showered me with love and care and alots of courage.

My crazy  lady,

You were fun to be around with. Love hugging and kissing you. Wish others in the family realised this before you went, but then now is too late, and i am lucky to be around you! You really took over mom's place. I guess your absence now is for me to learn to bond with her, and the others.
Miss all the good and bad times we had together, i hate when you were sick. That spoiled all the fun.
You were one rocking paati!! i know i should have let go of you then, but i wasn't able to because i couldn't make myself to except the fact that you are no longer here...
 But now, i can let go, but your voice still can be heard, whenever i am down, sad, happy, or angry or even when i was about to give up.... i hear you.... asking me to move forward, asking me to think, reminding me of myself and my abilities.
 i love you....


                                                                     yours sincerely,

                                                                       ThanamKutti
                                                                                                                            

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