Thursday, September 23, 2010

The Core

The word core means the centre, the innermost, or the fundamental. In humans, what is our core?
Is it our heart?
our brain?
what is it?In living a blissful life what is the essentials?
what is the way of living?
Many have different opinions and ideas on this but here i would like to present what my perceptions on these, based on the 22 plus years of living my life as i am.

The core to humans is our soul. Its very light, its simple. When we have such a simple core, why are we living in complications?
As i would like to say, these troubles that we bring forth or assume to be troublesome are just some thoughts thats being brought  up by our minds. See our mind is the most powerful machine that we have ever come across but yet we fail to aknowledge this. Why?  because we underestimate it.

Taughts that are fear based only creates more one fear... and its the subject of our taught that creates the reality for us.  when all our aim is to be helpful to each other, we in the meantime want to make ourselves to appear good. What we didn't realise is that no matter how much we try to cover up on our deed, things are done for good and so to rationalise it wouldn't be wise but to live the remaining or the new life that we have created truthfully is the one that matters the most.

The core/essence of us human being is in the truth. The more we hide from it, there more misrable we would be. But if come to accept ourselves, then we would come to accept the truth in life, and thus avoiding agony, and inviting more joy, peace, safety and security. Without us accepting ourselves first, then how can others do so??...this is something that everyone should ponder on and to realise what would they want to be, instead of worrying about what they have already done..

Life would be forgiving to us, if we forgive first,
as everything begins in us.....

Sunday, September 19, 2010

saying grace

to all the people whom i have met in my 23 years of life... officially at 3.43pm... :P
thank you... for stepping into my life and made it beautiful  and wonderful...

my life would be boring without you guys...
helped me to create my characters and whatever i have and believe in!

above all.. thanks to my parents... where would i be without them??
and my six precious brothers, whom are my source of inspiration..
next... to my other family members... then my BFFs!!!

my uni mates!!.... my school friends ... my ex-colloeuges.....

my crushes!!!..... and my lost friends....... camp friends.....kindy friends......thank you all....
^^................

and to people whom i have met at random places.. who taught me of simple things in life, thank you!!

Monday, September 13, 2010

its what we choose.... be careful of what you ask for....

day in day out,
nowadays i realised have stopped whining.
good for me and also to the ones beside me.
less negativity for everyone there.

till now, i couldnt believe myself that even when i brought
myself to a situation that could drain their life out,
but yet somehow i have manage to keep my cool.

This is way cool that might lead my dad or my mom into
annoyance.
Realised they don't prefer me when i am carefree,
but instead when i'm panicking and raising everybodys
blood pressure around.

When i sit and contemplate,
i realise things around me happen because i belive that
such a disaster would occur.
Leaving no self assurance that everything will be all right.

Thats why elders say, what we think is what we are.
worrying would only divert our energy to what we are not.
Sometimes leading us astray of our true path.
I get more wiser now.

For now am asking for everything to be crystal clear,
and peace for each and everyone of us( including me).
Grateful for everything that i have!
peace!!

Friday, September 3, 2010

takes time

today, walla!
i got  a way good lecture from dad.
And i dare say he IS right, in the sense that i am being ignorant.
and i made a pact within myself to change .

Come to think of why i'm, being such is do to my past when i realised that
when too much care given still you won't be appreciated.
got hurt badly, and was lied too.
And the best part all this coming from one of ur parents, will sure to crumble ur world into dust.
Hope lost,fear fills in, self-esteem gets lowered.
From that perfect daughter, to one who is childish or immature, as all the others called.
There were times i wished so badly i had someone to guide me out of it, instead of suffering it in silence.
I wanted to talk about to someone, without getting myself or the person involved judged, as
well... realised my brothers dont talk about it, i became even more cold.
i rarely trust anyone at that point.
because emotionally getting hurt by ur mom makes u even more affraid of getting too close with anyone.
then there is my lazy attitude, and yes naivity,which occured out of stubborness.
all the while i was thinkin bout the one who with or without realising made me sad, and hopeless, forgetting bout the other parent who was there all the while, showering with love, good words.
i didnt mean to compare them, their conflicting and complicating relationship ~i love both of them, by all means would love for them to be together again..... but as it seem none will get happier....
so off this goes to the dump!!!! i want to be somebody that i used to be!

i appologize to all my friends for what i was, if i had hurt u guys...

for those who have put up with me for all these times, i am incapable of saying thank you,as it is just not enough.

soo i cut the sad sentiment here.... and move on.... ;)
no more playing joker and hesitator.

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

the opposite of me~

for it is God's work,
 or our's.
magic felt
that enlightens,
energizes.


the more glimpsed
talked
listened
the happier, vibrant
and positive.


Everything at that time works,
evrything at the moment gives joy and succes.
its pure as an infant,
a smile of those gives warmth...
~love~