peace be with everyone

just when i wanted to get started with my things,
something else bad will pop out from nowhere
and deprive off my patience, energy and
turn my positive auora into a bad one!

what have i done in my past life,
did i torture people,
torment them till
i cant even find myself doing what i want
without getting interupted or
without getting my mood for the whole week spoiled.

with so much said,
i'm resorting to read the bhagavad gita again!

LORD KRISHNA SAVE ME PLEASE!!

caught in the middle

i'm still have not pass my assignment to my lecturer yet!
haiz, what am i to do.
when i realise how shalow my content was, i just got to
correct it... improvise to be exact!

Could not help being late. The impulviseness in me
that made me decide not to send in my already completed
assignment. The need for perfection.

I don't mind working alone, but the word perfect got to
fit in to my work. It has to be good.

Hard news and soft newss...
distinguishing them is easy,
reasoning out.. well
it must be written out appropriately.

blissful..

Well, that is what the word to describe the exhibition i attended the day before  yesterday with  ker ray. Spontaneous, i didn't bring my camera with me. It was organised by the Sogo gakkai again but only this time collaborating with the counseling club.

It was a good escapade for me, from all the things thats been bugging me for the past month, family,friends, life, my acedemics, my health. It just brought me back to sence, and thanks to ker ray for bringing me there.

So what did i learn from the exhibition?.. well it was all about self reflection.
I drifted back to what i usually do best long long time ago..
which was ... (i cant put this down properly, but i'll try  ;) )
learning on  religions.....     !
mostly on hinduism, islam, and christianity, so budhism is something new for me..
though it has its similarity with hinduism, i dare say that it is more... delicate in the aspect of praying and the practise of the religion. Compared to hinduism which can be agressive at times and also hefty.

more on peace talk...
i love peace, i myself love what they were preaching..(if thats the right word)..
just pure nothingness is heavenly.
Sometimes people might not agree with what i'm saying but this is what i feel,
and i do respect others believe because every single thing that ceased to exist in this world
has it's own reason of existing. ( this one out of the topic)

Was the exhibition nice? yes

it just brought out the hippy in me...

may everyone be blessed and be graced by god.. :)

peace yo!...

10 Life Lessons from Dad~ by readers digest~

really needs to put it down here in the 
blog as well as forwarding this via email!

1.You will be lucky if you can count your true, loyal friends on one hand, and two of those will always be your parents. 
-- Patrick Maguire


2. If you can't remember where you parked, don't drive! -- Carrie Trosper-Loos


3. Be so strong that no one can disturb your peace of mind, be too noble for anger, too strong for fear, and too happy to permit the presence of trouble. -- Rafi Ud Din Shamas


4. Suck it up because somebody else has always got it worse than you! -- Jackie Moninger Hatcher


5. Save your money. Don't be frivolous. Long term benefits always supersede short term satisfaction. -- Jenny Sondag Heddens


6. Eat fish, it'll make you smarter. -- Sihui Vice


7. Always shake with a firm handshake. I cannot tell you how many times I have shaken someone's hand firmly only for them to reciprocate. It shows confidence! -- Heather Hernandez


8. Never be a bootlicker. Show people that you have self-respect -- Imelda Valderrama-Otto




9. Not everything in life can always be fun. -- Kari Sanborn


10. Don't settle for anything that does not make you happy and proud to be with. -- Dawn O'Connor

~NOTABLE QUOTES ON WISDOM~

Have fun reading em,
and using em,
hope it will make everyone reading feel better,
it did worked for me...



To love what you do and feel that it matters



How could anything be more fun?


~Catherine Graham~



The weak can never forgive.



Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.


~Mahatma Gandhi~



Acceptance gives me the experience of being like an angel:



Never judging, never criticizing and never worrying.


~unknown~



We would never learn to be brave and patient



If there were only joy in the world.


~Helen Keller~



I think of life as a good book. The further you get



Into it, the more it begins to make sense.


~Harold S. Kushner~



The chains of habit are too weak to be felt until



They are too strong to be broken.


~Samuel Johnson~




A man may fail many times but he isn't a failure until



He begins to blame somebody else.


~John Burroughs~



Your success and happiness lies in you. Resolve to keep happy,


And your joy, and you shall form an invincible host against difficulties.


~Helen Keller~



An expert is a man who has made all the mistakes


Which can be made, in a narrow field.


~Niels Bohr~





Feeling sorry for yourself, and your present condition, is not only a


Waste of energy but the worst habit you could possibly have.


~Dale Carnegie~






We judge ourselves by what we feel capable of doing ,


While others judge us by what we have already done.


~Henry Wadsworth Longfellow~






There is no such thing in anyone's life as an


Unimportant day.


~Alexander Woollcott~


have a nice day people ;)

here at the junction 2

so what is my decision?
i want to do journalism, but still..
i kept asking for more opinions from friends and lecturers around.

WHY???
 cause it gives me different perspectives on what other choices that might exsist..

what other choises i thought off?

1. well this one radical, quit studying for time being and then work..disagreed by my dad.. stronglyy!!
2. go for other uni's... but what differences does it make anyway!
3. what else.. hmm....help dad.. dats all.. but he has disagreed on this also, STRONGLY...

CONCLUSION?
whatelse, do journalism larr..
hehe, by the way i have already received my offer letter.. and i'll be attending my classes
starting on today!! ;)
i'll prayy and put my effort to do well,
you guys pray for me to and bless me!!

Here At the Junction again..
which way to take?
 I am getting in to my bad habit again,
wondering what is my bad habit?
well i think too much,
i don't decide things easily.
 OkaY to get things straight.
 I've got terminated for the second time from completing my degree in chemistry

Reason?
Low pointer.
So i asked my self, what should i do?
the first thing that flashed into my mind
when i first saw my result was ohh no not again!
then atleast i could do anything else regarding books,
essays and articles...
JOURNALISMM..
well thats one option, what about my one and a half year spent on
my chemy, i felt disheartened...
WHATS NEXT???

i went to my dads counsel..
 his wise words were...
choose what you are really good,
what has been wasted, is gone,
now think about what you can do now....
and i was like WHAT???
appa.. after all that!
AND he was like..
you didn't take your vitamins properly,
what do you expect!
' you are weak anyway, but your not dumb!!'
gee, pa thanks..
~already weeping inside, god, the damage i did to
my dad~
well dad is still dad,
he still gives me all the encouraging words that i needed..
everytime he does that,
i will always come up with something good, or great.
I love you appa!!

next my beloved cousin sister that i have been idolising since i was a babyy
```and she really srewed me on the phone...
duh!! if she doesnt then, who will right??
she is my sis anyway!! cousin or not..
i dont know why, but when she starts to talk i'll just listen
and agree with her with whatever she is telling.
hey, she have a lot of point !!
its soo tough not to agree with her, it makes sense.
her comments were..
1. you aRE irresponsible..
you know you are the eldest of them all, and eldest dont have the luxury to do such mistakes!!
(agree)
2. You have just wasted everything, i've told you before right that you are not suited for this and you are better off doing on language!
aND your results were like shit..(she only mentioned it when i told her that my result was like shit)
3. lemme put this straight to you  stop agreeing  with everything!! its like u dont listen and just nodding to whatever everyone has got to say..( but everything has a point)
4. atleast you realiseed now!!
your still young, better do what you are passionate about and not on what other people have to say!
5.this is not the nineteenth century... u dont just marryy..( totally, i'm with her!! )


to be continued....................

Guide Me...

I don't know where  You Goin to lead me God..
But please let me out off this misery,
no more pain,
i have borne too many till i cant shed my sorrows in tears,
i dont want to be in idleness,
NEVER ever going to be idle..

Why after a long journey to the destination,
you have to turn my path,
was what i gave insufficient..
its too much to bear..
And i despise wastages,
and yet here i am wasted...

My elders told me that You have a plan for me..
but what is thy plan?
i cant bear to pull them in,
to my troubles, but then ...
i've did, now bearing the burden with me,
with broken hearts but a whole lot of hope and happiness they gave..
why them?
its not even their battle..

what shall i do now?
i dont want to rot in pittiness and sadness,
i want to change,
to help,
to heal but..
alas i myself wounded...

But now, leave em behind, to wlk ahead,
praying this time,
come what may,
You will be there to Help and Guide,
and lead me to happiness and joy,
away from sorrow.....

i want success, i want transparency,
i want purity....
because i know i Deserve them...
and i shall share my lot with others whom will be needing it,
without sacrifising myself anymore..
without miscomunication without misunderstanding..

For all the love, grace and blessing You give me,
i will share..
and make myself useful.

Guide me to my destiny, which is away from melancholy,
where my heart breaks not anymore...
where i am appreciated,
where i appreciate..
Where i can carry out the task given to me Diligently.

Awaiting for people to agree with me,
as much  i agree with them.
and believe..